Am I disappointing? I don't know. Sometimes I disappoint myself because I don't have enough courage, or I don't have enough strength, or confidence. I hate it. I know I could do better, I really do, but sometimes my confidence leave me. Anyway...I got this job interview and I don't think I get the job, maybe I don't have the confident, but I know I did my best. I will try again when I have the opportunity :)
Anyway...there's a possibility of me falling for someone. I like that someone for who he is, for the whole him, the little things he do, say, his expression, and how he looks. I like to see him being so happy and excited when he told me his hobbies or something that he likes. I like to see his eyes sparkles when he explains stuff that he knows. I like how he look like a child eager to listen and find out new things when listening to stories or something that is indeed new for him. I like to hear him said 'really?' In that excited happy tone. I like to see him smile. I like how he looks lively. I like how he always smile. I like it when he is so absorbed when he's doing something that he likes. Yes basically I like quite everything bout him. Why quite? Because I don't think I know the whole him yet, I think I only see the tip of the iceberg and I want to dive and see for myself the whole iceberg, the whole him. I want to get to know him, yes even the negative things, that is everything. Will I ever have the chance? Does he even like me?
Everything right now is a puzzle. One thing for sure I don't ever want to lose a friend.
This is it for now. I hope everything goes well.
There is one thing that bother me, whenever I told someone about this kind of problem, things usually ended up in the other direction. There usually an obstacle, such as his liking of person, or the status, or something like that. I have no idea why, I do hope this one ends well. Please God...I want this one to end well.
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