Scared

These past few days, I've been feeling rather scared. No, not these past few days, but these past few weeks. The reason, simply because I don't want to lose someone dear to me. I'm starting to get scared and being emotional without any apparent reason. I'm losing my cool and that's not good. That person however saw something through me and told me that I haven't been myself lately. I know, I'm just scared, I'm just too scared and I'm afraid of telling this to that person. Somehow there's a feeling that I might lose that person sooner or later. I know I want the time to just stand still, because I'm just too afraid of stepping forward into the future time. The thought of losing this person scares me than other things, I'm not really sure why. Anyway, I've been crying these past 3 nights, because I've been too emotional. I kinda feel uncertain, and that made me uneasy. Tonikaku, I've been trying to get something, non love life wise. I wonder if I can get it. I do hope so, since it's been my dream and it's been one of the reason I took my major in university. I look up at the serene sky and remember my cosmo, I wonder when I can go there again and feel at peace.