Today's over

Today is over. I have seen Blodwen and I love it. I keep on smiling and even though I'm tired I'm very very happy.
Somehow I feel that today's performance is better than the last one. I do hope that with each and every performances they'll be better. And I do think they get better with each performance they perform. Go Blodwen!!!
Now I'm going to eat. Sometime I feel kinda left out. Somehow I feel that way. I know I shouldn't feel that way, but I do. Feel somehow that they don't think I exist. Why? Once and the most important thing is everyone bailed on me!!! Well I somehow think that I don't want to come when they invite me to what they invite me to. If they bailed on me then I can bailed on them right? LoL

Hatsuyuki

Today I am going to see my friends perform. Yes, it's Blodwen. I am currently in Central Park. I invited my colleagues but none of them come, and I also invited my friends but none of them come. Well I guess that proves me that they don't care nor appreciated me right? Oh well....I feel a bit down, I really feel disappointed but there's nothing that I can do. Maybe I will resent them for that. Maybe....
Now I will wait patiently for my friends to perform. Yay! I know they will be great! Can't wait!!!

New day

2 days ago my friend died because of an accident. She was the 3rd person died because of accident. Yesterday they cremated her body. Hope she rest in peace.
Today I am waiting for something and it drives me mad. they told me to be here at 8 and now it's been an hour. It's not a good sign mate! I hope I can find some light to where I'm supposed to be in. Now I'm trying my best to be patient, I'm trying my best to be the best.
I still wonder though...what time they're going to call me in because now my tummy started to hurt. Somehow I have the feeling of attachment and I know it's not good. I think it's caused by the amygdala. Can I take it off? The amygdala?

Death

I just heard the news that one of my friend died. She's a close friend of mine and the news really shocked me. I cried. However I couldn't come to the wake...or at least I don't think I can today. I heard that she got hit by a bus.
I do hope that her family is going to be okay. Now I lost another friend. I hate that. Whenever I think of death I got scared and I don't know what to do, what to think, or what to say.
Maybe I am a vampire...

Home

I'm on the way home. The bus came not long after I post my previous blog. The last time I get on this bus was when I went to Gading with Adel and Sanny. I forgot what the event was but I know it has womething to do with cosplay in Gading. I think it's JFFF event.
Anyway...I suddenly hit by the will to watch Kamui Gaiden. I probably going to watch it next week. I just hope it still there and that I can watch. Otherwise I know I will buy the DVD. Matsuyama Kenichi is starring in that movie and I jist love him lol. He is the guy playing as L in deathnote and I think he really nailed it.
Oof...I need to have a medical check up and it's not going to be cheap >,<
I might blog every so often just to write my thought. I don't want to offend anyone because right now in here the internet is one of the way to drag someone to hell ane I hate that thing. By hell I mean accusing somene of badmouthing people or a cergain company or a certain someone. And personally I think it suck! Big time!

COSU!

I like cosplay...wait...I enjoy cosplay! I want to cosplay but I haven't found the one character that I really like to be yet. I enjoy seeing the cosplayer though. Whenever I'm in a cosplay event I feel that I can't stop looking at them, being awed and feel I don't want to go anywhere, feel that in that particular pla e I sense a place that I could fit in.
I am currently in MTA and there's a cosplay event and I really like it. Saw Echow and Haskara. I don't want to go away that fast but I have to. I just saw them a few minutes ago and I wish Echow good luck. Hope she wins!
Now I am waiting for the shuttle bus to come so I can go home. Hope that bus comes fast

Food and beverages

I realized that the past months my biggest expense is on food. Now I'm trying to quit that. Hopefully I can.
I just got the vitamin C. Tablets one. I hope it can do me some good lol.

Inception

I watched inception last night and think that it's a good movie. It makes you wonder about things. And in the end all I can ask is just one question, 'will you live in a dream? or better yet living a dream within a dream?'
I wonder how things are going to be from now on. I don't want to have any regrets. I will try to live my life to the best that I know.

Future

I am scared. There are a lot of uncertainty in this life and I hate it. I wish life is certain. The scariest thing in the world is disappointing people who are dear for me. I don't want them to be disappointed, I don't want them to be sad and I especially don't want to be the cause. I do hope I don't disappoint them, because I know they are very dear to me.

Decisions

I have to decide. I think I have made my decision. I just hope that I am making the right decision.
Now I have to wait and see and hope that everything will be okay. I think if that is in fact the right thing for me to do, I'm sure God will open the way

Crossroad

I am currently in a crossroad of life. I don't really know what to choose. I want something good. I know that God will give me the best, but right now when I have to choose by my own I don't know which I should choose. don't know which one is wrong or which one is the best one God's given me. Probably whichever I choose is best for me?
I have been asking my friends for some opinion and all they say was it all comes back to me, so I'm still confused. I wish someone can tell me what they will do if they're me.

Yesterday

I was sick yesterday, probably because of the seafood A.K.A squid that I had. I know I shouldn't eat it but I was hungry and feels that it's a shame not to eat it, so I did and in the afternoon I feel really sick. I feel bad for the one coeringmy class yesterday.
anyway...I have to decide something and up till now I still haven't decide yet....I hate that part of myself, for being hard to make a decision. I do hope I will be better later.
Right now I'm in the teacher's house and it's really take my mind off that particular matter. I don't know what I should do...

Stuff

It's been a while and I was forgetting that I wanna write something. 2 weeks ago, for the first time I saw a G sized bra...man...it's huugeee. I was a bit speechless when I saw that.
Now I'm on my way to work. I hope today will go well. It's very hot in here and the heat pretty much get to my head.
Oh, I almost forgot. I asked a few of my coleague to come to Central Park this 31st to watch Blodwen perform. Hope they can make it.

Gift

I did a spontaneous thing today, buying a birthday gift for a friend. It really was out of nowhere. I just found out last night that she's having a birthday today and today I suddenly have the urge to buy her something. I know that she likes Stitch and I suddenly remember that doll shoppe near where I work. Then I started to think what do I wanna buy for her. I thought of USB but she already have that, then doll but she won't be able to use it. then I thought of a pillow and when I saw the pillow I like it that instant, so I bought that. It wasn't that expensive so I still can afford it.
I called her to ask where she is and texted her if I could see her. She said that she would go somewhere in the eening and will be going to Singapore tomorrow. So I told her that I have soething for her and if I don't give it today it wouldn't be fresh. After class I asked her again and we met in Pizza Hut and I gave that to her. I told her I want to se her expression when she opened, so she opened te present there. She said she was speechless and I could see that she likes the gift and that made me glad. I hope she could find it useful.

Yesterday

I couldn't blog yesterday. Something was wrong with the phone connection to the internet.
Summary of yesterday: Iwas fine until the last class and after the last class I have a major tummy ache T.T but it was okay afterwards. I also decided to buy stuff if I can, gift for Adel haha, maybe an early birthday gift haha.Other than that everything is pretty muxh fine.
Now I think I need to buy some supplement such as vitamin C and calcium. I want nutrilite though

Home

I'm home at last. It's been a quite fun week, I hope the week to come won't be bad. I kinda scared, because I smiled a lot last week. I shouldn't smile that much, but I couldn't help it. I do hope the week to come won't be bad. I hope everything will be alright.
I finally get the shoes, a book (Violin for dummies -> yes I am for this matter still a dummy), a bra and two undies. I lurves them hahaha...
I ate kebab for my dinner and I shouldn't eat anymore for the night but I am still hungry >.<
I just log on to facebook a few minutes back and saw the video of Blodwen performance yesterday. It really brought me back to that particular moment ^^. I really enjoy it that it scares me >.<
Rock on Blodwen!! \m/
They will performed again on the 31st and I sure am going to watch them again ^^

Okaaay...

At PS right now. Was planning on watching Inception but that could wait. I went to computer and cellphone exhibition....eh wait I did say this before LOL. Anyway, we're just looking around and now I feel pretty dizzy. It was way too crowded. I walk and bump and bump and walk and bump and bump some more. I want to get a new shoes! The one I have right now is on the verge of making a hole haha. We'll just have to see

Sleepy

The sermon is over. Today was about direct line to and from God. Do you have? Well, the question that follow would be 'are you listening?' and another question that follow that other question would be 'is the line clear?'. Me? I guess I sometimes are bad, oter times I'm listening...although sometimes I'm not sure what God wants to tell me.
Now, I'm otw to an exhibition, going to see what's there. I'm very hoping to get a new laptop, but eh....we'll see
how today is going to be?

Central

I don't know why, but I'm not a big fan of the central church. They're big okay, but everything here is so confusing. No information, or at least someone who stand up and giving people information,l. Everyone seems to be too busy with their own stuff. Just now I overheard someone said 'you should have pay for these already' okaay, and I was thinking 'does it have to be inside of the room? or at least if it's church's need can't you go to a more private room?'
Oh well...let's see later, I have to ask about EWS to someone.
Ilike the branch better hahaha

Morning

Morning! Happy Sunday everyone!
I woke up feeling like I was the main character of shutter, because my shoulder and neck hurts. It's probably cause by the way I slept but it doesn't keep me from wondering 'nobody died right?'
Anyway, I was wondering if I should go to church this morning, because my uncle hadn't woken up yet. But here I am waiting for the english sermon to start, no way I'm going with the mandarin one mate! hahaha.
I wonder how today would turn out.
I also have been wondering if he avoid me because of the handmade scarf that I gave him...oh well.

Cool

I just got back from retro cafe. First thing first I gotta admit seeing Blodwen in person is very cool, I mean I've visited their website sometimes to listen to their songs...but tonight...honestly I couldn't stop smilling after the show. It was very very cool ^^. I really like it and B was very powerful, her voice was....wow. the rest are very cool too. I think it's their music, no I think it's the way they play, it really really....oh wow..I'm just speechless.
Before the show an incident happened....my bra shoulder strap snap T.T but it's okay haha. When they came I think the guy who was talking to me and think I was one of the band member was talking to B and Lexy about me. It's just what I observed but I think he told them about me because when I look at them they had their gaze in my direction...tell me if I'm wrong. I have another doki doki attack when I saw them coming. My heart goes 'gyaaa~ they're here' kind of thing. Anyway Cell introduced me to everyone after I joined them. 'Yoroshiku onegaishimasu guys!' -> didn't have the chance to say this yet. Anyway, the only one who didn't speak to me was their bassist haha...he is err....a cool type? hahaha...
I really enjoy tonight, I do hope I will be able to see them perform again. I know I really am going to enjoy the show.
Overall for today: pretty good day, Blodwen is great, and I need to get a backup battery for my phone and I do need a shoulder strap. LOL.

doki doki

currently at Retro cafe....hve been pondering for the last cople of hours if I should come. My friends are going to perform and since I never see them perform I thought of coming. Well...as I'm writing this...my hands are trembling. Also...before I arrived my heart beats were....unbelievably loud...and hard. well the hardness...it's not the best choice of word, but I can hardly think rigth now...to put it simply my heart beats harder the closer it is to 7 p.m and when I arrived...it beats even harder and faster. Really a doki doki moment and I don't know why...
err...just now someone came up to me and ask if I'm one of a band member....err....it was weird hahaha. I do hope they're going to come and perform before it's late at night.
my dinner tonight....a chicken salad and tea...muddy mint breezy haha...hope everything is good...although when I arrived I ask myself how do I get home lol....hope that won't be an issue...hahaha
oh...haven't told you the band's name...it's Blodwen...

devoted?

trying to be a devoted blogger. Can I post every so often? It's no secret that the internet is no longer a safe place to hide. Once you googled something everything would be there if you are exist in the internet haha. I wanted to see where this could take me. I do hope for the best